I want to rip my veins open and pour every ounce of poison ivy/oak I can
get into my blood stream. So much that it only leaves me wanting more.
The itch, burried deep within every pulsing ache. My fingertips clawing away,
trying to tell myself it'll only make it worse. I want to know what it's like 
to be so engulfed in poison, so wrapped up in the pain that it turns to pleasure.
The pain of knowing I can't have enough, so I try and I try. I grab more. Frantically

searching for every bit, shoving it across my arms, my thighs, my chest.
I want more, I need more. Eyes rolled back, head is spinning, my knees hit the ground..
and all I can think about is...



(not the best writing in the world, but it was on my mind) LOL
*hearts*

Hope everyone is having a great week so far.
:DDD 

We use to have a massive poison ivy/oak patch under our deck. ^-^ 

is really yummy.

On the never ending search for new music. =]
 http://8tracks.com/mixes/indie_electro/liked

http://8tracks.com/chichooliganbradley/pure-ecstasy

I believe it was around this time ..5 years ago? I try not to think about it. These 5 years in particular have felt like half the life that I have already lived, maybe add what feels like 20 more to that and..yeah..

Give me a life of immor.. 

To actually start feeling like, "wow, did I really walk the streets of boston?"

Something to work for, to fight for..because it's the only way I know how,..even if I have kept myself locked away..
Definitely. Something to fight for! , because I found that feeling of pure happiness..and now, I only try not to regret

not going after it sooner. Then again everything happens for a reason..right? ^_^



To the ends of the earth..and beyond. nothing less.

Let us not grow older , for I feel I'll lose it forever.





I hope everyone is having a great weekend!!! :DDDD
(my writing is a bit off, thoughts into words. lol) 

 
Heard this song on the radio the other day. =]
Halloween is tomorrow, I hope everyone has an amazing night. xo.

I am cursed with a bitter-sweet passion. 
^-^ 

I had another dream last night. The kind I wish I could stay in, the kind that when I wake up..
I wish I didn't wake up, believing to my very core that it was real. 
She was in my dream last night.

It was one of the most pleasent dreams I've had in a long time. 
I wonder if she..

nah..





Hope everyone is having a great week so far.
Halloween is coming up. =]]
 

I dont' know what's up with me lately..but I can't help but write.
It helps a bit.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!


Hope everyone is having a great week. =] 

Good morning. =]


At around :48 I want you to muffle every sound except the music, feel it
engulfing your every sense and wait for it..it's coming up around :53

...And I want you to feel every last bit of that passion. That emotion.!
Feel it, cause it's raw, unaltered and amazingly gorgeous!!!

I felt it this morning after watching movie trailers, which ended up leading me
to adele again. I thought I had posted it on here already, but I guess I haven't.
^-^
Passionate Love.
Raw emotion.
It's raw passionate emotion like this that fires me up.
I draw a line right here, right now as I write this..
This is to moving after what I want. What I've needed all along.

I hope everyone is having a great day. xxxxxx
=] 

Thought of all you reds out there. :)



On another note..

I had a dream the other night and today I started reminscing again. 
Without being a broken record, ..I can't keep letting it seek into my head for the rest of my life.
I thought I had it under control..I thought I had finally let it fall out of my head and heart for good.

I wonder if these words are the only thing keeping me in check, keeping me from exploding. Keeping me from
 throwing all the passion and energy I have into one moment. But what if that's what I needed all along. 




..that dream I had..
It was probably one of the most realistic dreams I've ever had. I woke up and wanted to go back to sleep right away..,


 This is for the adventures we have to go after, ..to those who live off the risk, the spontaneious and the adventure. 
Like literally, ..if you don't have it in your life you fall apart and ..well..

I've drown myself long enough..
I can't just keep writing it off, week after week..
On a blog or note where it probably seems like all I can ever talk about is the same thing. 

I do hope everyone is having a great week. :)
Know you're always loved. xx
 

You got me so wild,
How can I ever deny,
You got me so high,... 


 To anyone who wants that someone so badly it drives them to unexplainable
emotions...,

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

There's a fire starting in my heart..
Reaching a fever pitch, it's bringing me out the dark

Perhaps the only reason it sinks back into my head every waking moment..
is because it wasn't ever meant to end.
I think about every second of it.., I've made my mind up..
I want it back. I'll fight for it. I'll let it tangle itself around me until I breathe in nothing else.
I long for passion, I long for desire, adventure, curiousity in everything around me.
I long for love most of all.


 

 There's no stopping me.., I live off the sensations and passion of life..
It's time I stopped filling my head with silly thoughts and just followed my heart..