I have a type of epilepsy called complex partial. Yes, I also have had one or two grand mal (classic epilepsy), but these were in my sleep. I am a sleepwalker and non-hypnotisable. Very interesting, but irrelevant at this time. I regularly have petit mal (as they were known), simple partials and myoclonic. Twice I had an atonic seizure and it wasn't pleasant. This didn't seem to be enough to prompt me to see the doctor, although I did mention it at a medical meeting elsewhere. They referred me, but I heard nothing. Someone mentioned it to my doctor and he told me to go in, but they had subsided at that time so I never did. They tend to come around in sets of 1-4 months (in a row) and then mild symptoms for about 5 months or so. My blue-yellow colourblindness is a symptom of this disorder.

It must be very severe right now, so I've taken all precautions e.g. no video games, low stress (as much as I can in this home environment), low caffeine, no alcohol. I can't go to the doctor as I have no nhs fee exemption and at £7.20/item it's a big bill. My doctor loves to go overboard with the prescriptions. He'd rather be safe than sorry.

I suppose, if it was just that, I would go and pay the huge bill...claim it back later. But I know I will get referred to the hospital again...and I hate hospitals. If I had to stay the night I...just wouldn't. To tell you the truth I'm also really worried about this, it's not just interfering with my life....it gets too much to know that you run the risk- should someone express emotion around you- that you may black-out and become aggressive, violent and mean. The worst is that I can't even remember it, I don't know how many times I have done this where there has been no evidence except people treating me weirdly.

http://www.epilepsy.org.uk/info/complex.html

That's not the best link, but it does basically hold some information about two of the types I have.

I've told myself many times before that if I have an 'aura' of a complex partial, I should get away from others immediately. Sadly, sometimes it is not a real warning and I've learned to not take it seriously. My auras don't leave enough time before the main event and I often have simple partials without going on to a myoclonic/complex partial/atypical absence/atonic/tonic.

May 24 was a notorious day when I knew they were back. I had been awake a long while, consuming caffeine and playing flash games. I was under a lot of pressure with assignment deadlines and such. You know what happened next, you know the score. I went into chat to say 'bye' to someone, although this goodbye took a lot longer eventually and I ended up missing class the next day from 'coming out' of seizure after seizure. I was going to go to the doctor right then. But didn't. In my family we were taught to get on with it. I remember just after this episode/set of episodes, I could taste lead and started feeling weird, that's how I knew I was going to have more that day.

My friend's father has epilepsy (mainly grand mal though), so I could talk to my friend about it aswell. If anyone knows the route to go to get assistance with these types of seizures, please tell me. I've pretty much had enough of these and will do anything to stop them happening again (especially the CPS, which are causing most of my problems). I was much happier before I started having them (when I was 16).

Well I've got a headache, the sign of having had a seizure...or an impending one. I'm sure it's the former. So before I pass out from tiredness, or have another one, I'd better hide myself away from the world. I've had 2 (?) in a week and that's a sign that I'm not in a good physical state.

I just wanted to write to spread the word about these less commonly heard forms of epileptic seizure. We all know about grand mal, but not many hear about the lesser forms, which can have just as serious consequences (they are also harder to diagnose). I sure have learnt the full effect of having one of these untreated forms. Never leave the damn thing untreated.

 

http://www.epilepsyfoundation.org/answerplace/Medical/seizures/types/partialSeizures/complexpartial.cfm

 

(poi: mine do tend to occur for 3-4 hours if under a lot of pressure. This is because I'm in and out of conscious thought, when I'm 'in' though, it's confused thought...so because I'm stressed from the confusion at what I'm actually trying to do I will fall back into another. This doesn't usually happen when I'm not interacting much with others.)

 

 

 

 

 

 

Beware the transposition at 2:43....

 

Also available in audio-only here: http://www.traxinspace.com/song/46123

So yea, my forum is now not just for reds who like computing...it for reds who also like tech stuff in general. Who cares about the host.. If it gets too much I'll either lose the forum or I'll pay depending how I feel.

 

I love the name of the sub-page that it is on:

 

redhead-gathering.isgreat.org

 

hehe lol.

 

So if any of you fancy trying it out or whatever, just come have a look....just don't overload the server by coming along in vast numbers . I also don't really care too much about rules on the forementioned forum yet, 'cause it's not even established. Posted already are topics such as computing, gaming and star trek as well as something to do with the festival. But blah, most things are acceptable over there...except the usual things that are banned of course.

Eh, those of you that know me will know about my amateur synth music creation. I play around with software synths and have done for 5 years, although I did change software this year.

Most of the stuff is created on a 'classic' synth, so it is kind of what you would think of first. The other set is made up of instrumental samples and these can be edited. I tested the limits of this today and got a few errors plus gained the knowledge that only one channel can be distorted, but also that then that channel's volume can't be changed.

I have a very repetitive style (one member there kindly informed me), which I already did know. But now I'm taking steps to prevent this and came out with a new one (I'm finding difficult to equalise) today.

The new one sounds a little weird, actually.

Abstract: Yeah, what the title says ^^^^. (if you can't be bothered reading the rest!)

                                                                                                                          

Elaboration: But seriously, I'm kinda stuck on my other two projects, both which I started in 2006. The third one I started early this year, but stopped adding to it because I ran out of ideas and wasn't sure exactly where I wanted to lead it. Maybe university taking over my schedule in February was also to blame! After all, I had a lot of essays and coursework already...who really would want to write more?

The 2nd one I started writing has a bit of a paranormal storyline. I don't think this could really go anywhere as it's not really for any age group. There is some suggested violence, though not graphic, although the main story would be aimed at around the same age as Harry Potter was (see where the issue is? They had a few problems with classifying that, publishing the books was also difficult). I am also out of ideas for this one.

The first was pretty much a pet project which I enjoyed writing in 2004. I developed the whole idea and wrote more of a storyline in 2006, although it really falls into the category of 'fictional biography'. It is really about a set of unidentical twins, the twin bond etc and some events which affect them throughout their lives. I even devised a 2nd follow-up story, but writing for the 'big screen' isn't exactly wise. It was the only one of my pet projects to become something bigger (to me, anyway) and the whole story started off as just one of multiple fictional biographies I wrote. I just love to describe things, which made me an absolute star in English class (this is where I found I had a talent for imaginative writing....at about age 15). Doesn't really help you expand the story though. Oh and the twins thing- I was a twin myself...but never really got to experience the bond thing. I did see it in my two twin older friends though...met one of them when he was a supply teacher at my high school, next thing I knew I had met his (identical!) twin brother on the bus during the Summer break. If I hadn't lost contact, we would still be friends (he was one of those rebel-type teachers who talked to the kids just outside of school hours - long story).

The third one is controversial in some ways. I could expand on it to make it an absolutely pristine piece of descriptive/imaginative writing, maybe suitable for 13+, or I could take it down into alternate routes to make it more worthy of attention. I published some of it here, those of you who saw would know I am big on my imaginative descriptions and poetry....but I had to remove some of it, through decency. I could create 3 different versions of this one, just to access a larger range of people, but I am worried about the 'featured character' who happens to be a real person. I wouldn't want to cause any problems there. If it wasn't for this, then great! I would be able to publish this somewhere online right away. I would want to publish this in future anyway, as it involved a lot of effort and I really did spend a lot of time on it. I did not put names in it, so that should be alright; but asking will still be required. I also would not want it to become a self-fulfilling prophecy.

So many problems when writing. I have definitely chosen the right genre, just that there isn't much of an audience...or if there is, there is always another reason not to publish!

But anyhow, I still have some writing in the blog....mainly from January and such. That's evidence of how I use way too much vocabulary and really try to give it a nice, shiny finish.. maybe I should just release the work without concentrating on making it all into some kind of novel? After all, sometimes good things are found in small creations!

www.cleverbot.com

I didn't talk to it as long as some people who told me about it (4 hours...what is with that? I was on it for about 1 hour 30 minutes!).

Bizzare-o.

Apparently it isn't a redhead. Aww. ha!

http://tech.uk.msn.com/features/photos.aspx?cp-documentid=153432833&page=1

 

This stuff was creepy. No cool music like in the 80s either....no....just weird beeps. I tell ya, my grandparents used to go crazy when I got up at 5am (being a hyperactive and weird child)and put this on....

I can't believe I missed this:

 

The test cards and talking clock (mum told me about this!) were a feature of analogue, with digital they don't need this anymore. So....there will never be a live broadcast of this again. ;)  Kind of weird how I used to sit and watch this as a child though! A trivial fact is that it was also made so that people could align their CRT tv's. :)

 

 

(annoying right?)

 

....long story, but when I logged in from the actual website....IT WORKED!!!!!!!!!! Finally!!!!